I heard my friend, facebook, internet, everywhere talking about this.

I have serious doubt about it – I mean, please…I have never seen a trans looking and feeling so perfectly … female.

Boobs – yea, can be faked

Butt – yea, can be faked.

Facial features – yea, can be faked.

But voice? ? I doubt it can be faked … right?

I’ve seen the most beautiful Trans in KL …They looked perfect.  So much so… i felt like digging a mole hole there and then and jumped right into it till the Trans show is over. The only one thing that gave them away was their voice.

I mean, if you spent like a bomb on all those painful (I heard its a real painful process to create a man-made…you know, femail genetials) surgeries … you would want to change the voice too right? IF it can be done.

Seriously, I think the news are bogus.

Megan Fox is so gorgeous!

幸好之前的事已过了。。。turns out 我的 Boss 一点也不在乎。。。 哈哈。。。白白吓自己一场。

不过，工作还是有压力的 especially 在这个economy downturn + H1N1 apedemic 。。。 每个人心里都很不踏实。

希望这一切会快快过去。

自己也在想钱赚钱的办法。之前的 Aussie Dollar investment 的 returns 还算不错。。。接下来要做什么好呢。。。想要投资 USD 可是现在美国太不稳定了。。。不知道以后她的 Currency 会不会和以前一样值钱呢？

嗨。。。对我们这种普通人来说，钱怎么都永远不够用。 可是偏偏那些有钱的人却不珍惜自己的财富，乱花钱，乱挥霍。以为父母的钱永远都花不完的吗？ 以为有钱就了不起吗？就可以狗眼看人低吗？

可是我却频频出错。。。

我也不知道礼拜一要怎么跟老板讲。。。

有想过不说，可是说好过被揭穿来的好对吗？

嗨！真不知道我的 Probation 可以过得了吗。

在冲凉的时候又在想：我烦什么啦。。。天下有多少人的烦恼比我还要严重 – 打仗，挨饿，病，痛。。。 我在 complain 什么！

从冲凉房出来后却又觉得很烦。。。加害怕 – 不知道老板会不会这样就讨厌我，fail 我的 probation？

没有工作怎么办？

烦。。。

往往如果不是生活在一个更恶劣的环境，自己的烦恼总是比别人来的严重。

My colleague briefed EVERYTHING to me within a day and the next I am expected to be on full operations on everything. I was like…duh…you think i can remember everything?!?!

And then I started to miss this out….miss that out….then forget to do this…forget to do that…makes lotsa mistakes….because there’s 101 things to do in a day and I have not gotten a hang of the stupid BUCKS system which by the way, is so lousy and full of errors, you can see all the dried blood on my keyboard.

So now, i am feeling lousy. Angry at myself. I have never felt so useless and inefficient in my entire life. It seemed as if I can’t do anything right here. Nothing.

And I’m just 1.5 months into my job… Already I feel so lousy about myself.

help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just feel like letting my tears roll down with frustration. The kid in me feel like resigning. But the adult in me is screaming at me like mad with bills in her hands, forbidding me to do so.

Someone just help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am dying with internal frustration and anger!!!!!!!!

Argh!!!!!!! !!! !!! !!!!

My colleague basically expected me to learn and know absolutely everything within these 2 weeks. Which, hello?? You did it, doesn’t mean I can do it okayz. And I had absoultely no experience whilst you came in with experience okayz.

She gets exasperated whenever I ask her a question which she always say its in the notes she gave me. And I am quite, and very sure, that she complained to my new boss about me, most probably, being a slow learner or something.

The thing is, Miss Act Cute, not EVERYTHING is stated in your ‘martial book’ and the reason why I need to check with you is because I am not familiar with the procedures and I don’t want to make any mistakes that are irreversible! Imagine I left some boxes unchecked in the system and someone ended up not getting the right portion of his salary!

And not to mention you always run through everything like a bullet train. AND YOU EXPECT ME TO REMEMBER EVERYTHING?

My on-going part-time degree is not helping either. FUCK.

Note to self: There shall be no more than 2 subjects per term for the next semester.

Its definitely killing me.

You do not need to look like a thug to be a thief. You can look like a monk , chant sutras all day long, bury yourself in ice for charity shows and yet … the basic fundamentals of who you are is still a thief.

Buses in Singapore may LOOK as if they are new with newly fitted chairs and yet … somewhere during your journey, you find your head wet in a pool of water. You look up and ah… you realised, this is not a new bus afterall. New buses do not have air-con with dripping water. Now I really wonder about the number of “new’” buses the tranportation operations promised to committ…. hmm…

I thought I could get away from the evil colleagues when I realised that someone has secretly took my thumbdrive and most probably accessed the content and put it back, in the wrong USB port – the thumbdrive which contains information on my new job. Yes. That’s how creepy my current workplace is. People are constantly trying to set each other up, spread rumours, and even to the extent of spying on your personal thumbdrive.

Oh, did I mention they also tailed me to pantries, toilets and wherever i may be – for god knows what the hell the reason is. They may as well chain me to my chair.

Now you know why the hell am I still resigning from, i believe the only one and only company in this world, that offers ridiculous salary for that pathetic little amount/quality of work that you do.

So, besides being that creepy, they are also cheapos.

My manager gave me sample fragrances for my birthday. And I just received an sms from Ms-Mad-Woman, asking me if I would like to be the caregiver (yes, that was exactly what I quoted from her sms) for bracelet belts that she doesn’t need anymore…assumingly, as my farewell gift.

Seriously, these two psychos are in need of psychiatric help from the professionals, and probably, a taoist – to get rid of the evil-ness in them.

I swear to god, if they dare to sabotage my new job, I make sure I bring them down to hell too.

I’d be picking up my shoes I reserved at Paragon down the street, I said. He choked in his glass of lemonade and exclaimed, what?! Reserved?!

Yea, reserved as in reservation, Oh, wait a minute…. you think i custom-made a pair of shoes or what?

Yea, that was what I thought, said he.

You think I’m crazy or what? I reserved it because it was out of stock!

Oh. Okay, he said.

Ooi, I haven’t even asked about your new Tag Heuer lor.